The Grass Isn’t Always Greener. Appreciate Present Moments

I recently moved out of my parents house.

They let me live there for the past few years while I focused on my business. Yes, they are saints and I owe them everything.

I thought I would be super stoked to be out of their house and living on my own again.

Last time I was living on my own was in my early 20s.

But the feeling is different now. Opposite at the moment.

In the long run, this move was/is the right decision.

I was in my comfort zone with them and becoming complacent. Which, at a young age I made a promise to myself I would never allow myself to live in that situation - complacency.

To me, that’s like this Russ quote: “Lotta y'all are dead, you just waitin to be buried.”

But right now, I miss being with them. To the point of being kinda sad.

To be fair, these are raw emotions that I’m sure will balance out. I’m less than 24 hours post moving out. I haven’t done anything except unpack, rest, and help Luna adjust to being at a new spot and in the city for the first time.

I haven’t seen anyone. Haven’t done anything. No runs, bike rides, soccer, friends, etc.

So I’m sure a bit of loneliness plays into missing them. Since they were always around while I was home.

I do feel confident that as I get into a routine of “activities” the feeling of being sad will fade.

But I know for sure I’ll continue to miss my parents.

I think the last time I moved out I was so excited and loved it right away because I was younger and partying more. Things my parents wouldn’t have let me do in the house, or have been thrilled with.

I don’t really party much anymore. I’m more lowkey and focused on work, Luna, soccer, and training.

So what I was doing day-to-day at my parents house vs what I’m doing day-to-day at my own place is pretty much the same.

I could make the argument that it was better at my parents house because 99% of the time I had a full time dog sitter for Luna at no cost. (LOL)

But now I get to play my music as loud as I want throughout the house, whenever I want… fair trade? (No).

While living with my parents someone said to me I should look at it as a privilege that I get to spend this much time with them at this stage of my life. Because it won’t last forever. Not everyone gets to. And, I can have a different relationship living with them as an adult vs how it was when I was a kid.

I kinda heard them at the time. But I was also just focused on getting out.

Too focused on the future that I didn’t appreciate the present moments.

I did try to really appreciate living with them and enjoy it. Sometimes I did.

Other times my anger and frustration with my own situation got the best of me.

A total cliche, but now that I’m back on my own, I realize the grass isn’t always greener on the other side.

One thing I really plan to improve on is appreciating and soaking in every moment.

Time is flying by. And it’s only going to go quicker, (unfortunately).

I already feel like so much of my life was a blur because I was always looking for what’s next. Focusing on how to one up what I just did or what I just got.

Or always so excited for the future because I tell myself ‘One day we’re going to be rich and that’s when the real fun starts.’

I am (and have been) starting to do less of that. But I still have a long way to go.

All of this coulda been said in one simple text to my parents:

“I miss you guys”